no matter what I say, I don't think I can bear to watch these idiots fend for themselves.
maybe its why I'm so angry.
buncha blockheads won't even turn up for my funeral if I go down.
and rather than look out for my own ass, I'm looking out for theirs?
but I'm not a protector.
I'm lousy at saving people.
I dunno..

Daniel's story is totally stupid, there's no way things can turn out anywhere like that for this buncha kids in 10 years time.
perhaps I'll never know
or perhaps I grasp how twisted reality can get when passing through the winds of time better than he does.
but alright granted, its kinda funny.
does make me think though
coz I never really thought about 10 years later.
I mightn't make it past 10 hours later dammit..

for some reason, I keep thinking I'll have a kid by then and I'll never see the mother again.
it'll be a dream to be outta combat
I'll never join the army.

but I have no idea what I'll be.
that is disturbing..
I just want to be free from all this.